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In The Life of An Autistic
Woman Born 1950 London England. What An Extraordinary
Life. How Did She Survive?
IT'S AMAZING HOW SHE GOT FROM WHERE
SHE WAS AND TO WHERE SHE IS TODAY
She was a timid and shy young girl and very much in herself, you can see this in the photo of her on the left hand side. Her shoulders not relaxed and walked with her head down most of the time and she was a late bloomer. She had been taught empathy by her mother and to think of the other person's feelings because you don't know what they may have been going through. It did sometimes confuse her trying to fit into the unfamiliar world and who to trust? When her hormones kicked in she started standing up for herself, she wasn't going to be bullied another day longer. Fighting The Bully At School Her mother had taught her don't let anyone see it bothers you sweetheart, if someone is snarky or being mean and don't be intimidated and never let them put you down. The only problem and not realizing her uncle terrifying her when young and certain things coming up in her life she couldn't control and when feeling unsettled it would trigger her. The fight or flee response would occur and sometimes she would fight and other times run, or cower like a frightened animal and this did happen to her. There are predators wanting your children and can be in your family or someone you know also a stranger.
The other photo is playing dress up with her brother and little cousin, she remembers her mother having to intervene when she and her brother were arguing, they both wanted to be the chief Indian and to keep the peace their mum said they both could be the chiefs. She loved playing being someone else and dressing up in her mother's clothing. Wearing her leopard faux fur coat, hats, shoes, dresses, jumpers and shirts. Also putting on her mum's favourite scent Musk cologne by Avon, Feeling all grown up and dabbing it on behind her ears and even spraying other perfumes on herself. She loved playing make believe and oh what fun she was having. It was better than being at school where she didn't fit in; tormented, bullied, hit and laughed at put down because she couldn't read and being so skinny didn't help. She'd run home from school crying and wish she could disappear, have a magician wave his magic wand and poof she was gone. Things would slowly started to change, even though she couldn't understand this environment around her .
It's always there in your being, anxiety and fear, especially when stressed and situations she couldn't control. She'd have mood swings get depressed sometimes, no she wasn't bipolar, she suffered with PMS when her period started. It would only go so far the feelings she felt then she was able to turn a switch on or off it was like bio-feed back, she'd snap out of it. Where did that come from? Living with parents with different personalities completely opposite in every way possible. Her parents always arguing; which did upset her because she just wanted to live in *love *harmony *peace and quiet. here is an example: Go Here
A woman at her mother's work was an Avon rep, do you recall Ding Dong Avon Calling? This was back in the 60s, and her mum would give her daughter the samples that she adored playing with. There she was at her mother’s dresser picking out what colour she would paint on her lips from the Avon lipstick samples; that were stacked, one on top of each other. Also, her mum had given her an Avon makeup box filled with eyeshadows; pink, brown, yellow and blue and a pink blush too. In the container applicators with a blush brush to apply it all on her washed clean face. Her mother explaining you have to have your face like a blank piece of cavas nothing on it sweetheart, then create the look you want. She was in her element enjoying herself, always wanting to look glamorous like a movie star she was masking pretending being someone else.
1968 GOGO DANCING
60s Fashion Scott Walker
1968 Kim was now working for a promotion and modelling agency can’t remember how this came about she had been in the local newspaper the caption Then and Now a picture of her when she was a young child and a picture the photographer took that day. Before that had occurred she meets a photographer walking down Harrow High street. He asked could he take pictures of her and owned a photography studio near by. It was very strange all these photographers wanting to take her picture, and said you will have to meet my mother first. He was a very nice young man, and they hit it off, she felt very comfortable in his presence. Started going on her days off and sometimes after work. Anyway back to the agency she was asked would you like this job as a GoGo dancer? She thought this was great, loved dancing and seeing Goldie Hawn on LaughIn GoGo dancing on the telly, it would be perfect she thought. The photo in the blue outfit she wore on her first experience dancing at a club and will never forget, it was very embarrassing had no idea this was supposed to be GoGo dancing, Kim got off the stage and walked out. Her mother phoned the agency extremely angry and talked to one of the owners, “don't ever put my daughter in a position like that ever again, otherwise she will never work for you it’s not acceptable” He apologized and she did get paid. The second time GoGo dancing Kim was going for an interview a private men’s club in Mayfair, and was told to talk to the disc jockey when she arrived there. Naive she walked to the beat of her own drum and thank goodness she did, having two personalities. Wore the beautiful silver crochet outfit, she had gone with her mum to London, used the money she was paid from some modelling work she had done. All dressed up with her BIBA makeup and of course her false eyelashes and hair pieces, she loved looking glamorous like a movie star. Thinking she was ugly if she didn't have her mask of disguises to hide behind. Wearing her maxi coat over her gorgeous silver outfit and off she goes in a taxi to this private men’s club; completely clueless.
When Kim arrived at the club did what she was told but first had to check herself out in the powder room, very posh, calling the toilet the powder room, well she was in Mayfair. Kim walking through the large Disco area seeing a fella who looked like the disc Jockey talking to someone. Went over tapped him on the shoulder and politely introduced herself with her very quiet sweet soft spoken British accent. She could be very straightforward if a bloke pissed her off and this fella ignoring her, she’s very indignant he didn’t have the decency to turn around and dismissing her. That reptilian part of the brain came out because of the way he acted, how dare he to do such a thing being disrespectful. She said some choice words and the F word and walked away. Where did that come from? And God forbid she never swore in front of her parents, in fact anyone. She was brought up prim and proper, her mother teaching her very good manners. Even though her dad swore all the time, his Jesus bloody Christ and bloody hell, he never used the F word. Kim was a sweet young girl but wasn’t going to have him treat her that way, she had learned to stand up for herself, fighting the bully at school. The next thing he came running after her and was in shock when he turned around seeing this pretty young girl all glammed up walking away and so feisty, that must have shock him. He did say after she said some more choice words wasn’t going to let him get away being so rude, and not liking his attitude. Not having the decency to turn around to talk to her he did apologise and remarked she had too much class to be GoGo dancing. She knew he was right and never GoGo danced again, it was short lived but still carried on modelling. He asked her out and he was a model as well, a Greek guy full of himself. Should she go out with him? She wasn't sure but you know when you're young the bad boys seem to get your attention. They ended up seeing each other and he wanted to marry her, thank goodness that didn't happen and their relationship didn't last that long, she broke up with him. Why? She was looking for true love and she had to be courted and someone who treated her special with a good heart. He was attractive looking, she was very visual and everyone has their type they are looking for. Kim wanted a man to be romantic and sweep her off her feet, like in her picture stores. she would draw. She would be able to share her secrets and he would be good, loving and kind cherishing every part of her being, no matter what. That's what she was manifesting and would she be able to open up and not hold back. She had to find the man who had the key to her heart and would she find him so she could be her true authentic self?
This jerk definitely wasn't that fella and being strong willed she wasn't impressed how he was treating her and something about him that scared her. Also a horrible thing happened that really upset her this is all in her novel. As her mother would say "what arrogant sod he was". It was all about him and she wanted to be all about her. Especially after being spoiled by her other boyfriend who bought her beautiful clothes and gifts, took her to all thees famous great places and treated her really well. That relationship didn't pan out she didn't have the same feelings for him and anyway she was too young and would never want to use him. She felt comfortable in that relationship, he never came on to her and most likely he wanted to be seen with a pretty girl he could show off. He was patient and perhaps hoping she would come around by treating her like a princess, he saw her shyness, and insecurity wanting to protective her. Kim liked him because he was like the father she always wanted also her grandpa had written her a story called Princess Beauty, a fairy tale of everyone getting along didn't matter if you were rich or poor. A beautiful, wondrous and harmonious place filled with love, acceptance, joy and happiness. That's how she wanted her world to be. No hate, No envy, No wars, everyone getting along and loving one another, unfortunately that's not reality. As she learned living in this world she didn't belong. She was blessed to shut it all out going into her own surreal existence having an incredible imagination and what a wonderful gift to be born with...
A Great Video 60s Fashion
Thank goodness Twiggy became a famous model, she was skinny like her when her body started developing and looking more womanly. She did get a lot of attention from the opposite sex but was oblivious how they saw her, she just loved fashion and hiding behind her mask of disguises. Still reserved but friendly and preferred being with fellas, they were not bitchy like some girls. Till she met this wonderful young lady, they became best friends, she was like a sister she always wanted. Her parents owned a pub in the East End of London The Harrow and they were like her second family and she enjoyed staying with her friend and her two sister's. They had such fun together laughing and being silly till the wee hours in the morning..
Wonderful Story Meeting Scott Walker
She was now working at the Regent Palace and on her day off in London and passed by this gorgeous looking fella. Being very visual he caught her eye, had no idea who he was and he smiled at her and she smiled back and invited her to where he was staying. She did get a phone call a couple of days later and did see him again? There are so many stories of the swinging sixties and what a time to be living in for a girl like her, who walked to the beat of her own drum. She did it her way she didn't know any better. Her mother let her to go out into the world and learn her own life lessons for herself. Never put any restrictions on her, she was more like a sister than a mother. She was one of a kind and what a sense of humour and a great spirit and loved to help the underdog that was her mum. A Lancaster lass from Manchester and what a spitfire she was, down to earth extremely funny with that great sense of humour of hers.
Kim will never forget the afternoon she spent with Scott Walker a gentle man and writes in her novel the experiencing him opening up and felt he was a lonely sensitive soul. It was amazing she could have spent a lot more time with him but had to get back home for dinner. She was mesmerised with how he came across and expressing himself. She knew he was different and that's why she liked him, creative lived in a world of his own like she did. all these legends have passing
Sad All These 60s Icons Have Left This
World Scott Walker One Of Them
These stories that are being told of sex trafficking this could have easily been her when growing up in England. This happened in 1971 when starting a new job off Quebec St near Bond St, in the great city of London, thank goodness she wasn't interested in money or fame. A woman approached her where she was working, won’t go into all the details it’s in her novel. All she can say she could have easily gone down that path if it hadn’t have been for all the right people coming into her life at the right time. Also having the knowing picking up vibes, an antenna reaching far and wide. This woman offered her a job; her words "what a beautiful young lady my clients would love you" She was confused why was she offering her a job when she already had one. Her answer "I am not interested thank you", the woman's reply "but you will make a lot of money, my clients are rich Arabs, politicians and well known people". Researching for her book she thinks she found who that woman was. She was a well known madam and a dominatrix at that time in London living close to where she was working. I suppose she was searching for pretty young girls for these rich and famous men, doesn't that sound like Maxwell Who Worked with Epstein?. This has been going on for centuries and even worse what happens to these females and males, sex trafficking and even worse with children.
Kim looked at her very puzzled and she had no idea of what she was talking about and told her again she wasn’t interested. Then the woman with bleach blonde hair wearing a lot of makeup said, "you will make a lot of money, I mean a lot and go all over the world and will meet famous people". She still wasn’t interested, she had met some famous people before and they didn't impress her at all. Her mother had brought her up no one was better than anyone else. Money and fame weren't on her agenda, she was looking for love. At that time she had fallen madly, deeply and passionately in love with a young French gentleman from a upper class family and had just gotten back from a wonderful trip in Paris, that she will never forget. She went as a young shy girl still hiding secrets especially when it came to her body image, it was amazing had no idea how a man can pleasure a female and she was hooked. He was everything she wanted, patient, confident good looking, strong and manly; and had taken her to visit different parts of France and even Belgium meeting some of his other family who lived there. They were warm and loving with lots of hugging and kissing. She absorbed their kindness and generosity towards her, it filled her heart with so much joy and loved their French food and way of life. Except his father, he hated her didn't like her at all and found out later why. That’s another adventure in her life’s story....
She was very blessed to have a mother who taught her to validate herself and she was just as good as the Queen, no one was better than anyone else and treat people how you want to be treated. Nevertheless she wasn’t the type of girl who was intrigued as she had mentioned by fortune and fame. It didn't seem real, smoke and mirrors, very phoney that's what she was picking up on, when meeting these famous people. Kim didn't realize this at the time she was an empath, and was too sensitive for her environment, was told she should be in the movie business with those expressive eyes and looks of hers. She had some great opportunities that came her way but that wasn't her destiny and having all those secrets that she kept to herself. Learning to fit in the best way possible and as she got older she was very good at covering up her insecurities. After all she became a good actor in real life, watching and studying others on the telly and on the big movie screen. She was able to conform and fit in anywhere, she had a lot of practice drawing how she wanted her existence to be; a chameleon from a working class background. Why was that? Because of all those years being ostracized, cut off and in a fog, bullied feeling like an alien. Having that great imagination of hers that saved her in many ways. She could be whoever she wanted to be in her fantasies that was sure a great blessing....
Yes she was clueless how others saw her and remember bumping into this fella, she knew him and older than her. She was more attracted to older men when younger and they were the ones who would ask her out. He owned a leather company, she even remember his name quite distinctly. A lot of men she went out with had their own businesses and seemed to have money. She was walking down Carnaby St in her mini skirt, after all it was the swinging 60s. This story is in her novel, she is only going to tell the end of what happened. When driving her home said “you don’t realise you are sitting on a goldmine”. She had no idea what he was talking about and when he dropped her off at home and she asked her mother, “what does it mean I’m sitting on a goldmine mum?” Her reply “cheeky bugger! you are not seeing him again”, as she shrugged her shoulders still not having any idea and went on her merry way as usual. A wandering butterfly, flitting here, there and everywhere and never settling and yearning to know what true love was. Living in her council house
DIFFERENT TYPES OF LOVE
THAT CAME INTO HER LIFE
She lived in her own little world and was grateful, she was extremely creative and oblivious to the evil there was out there and didn't believe in the devil. Even though she had experienced some very bad situations and there again she was brought up with an attitude not to blame, as her mother would say; "you just get on with it" That was the British way and after all it was in her DNA. Then where do you turn? Of course, you will have to look inside yourself. That's where you get your strength from and hope you learn from them and that will make you stronger and a better person. When you have faith and God's love in your heart you have to forgive. If you don't you will carry that shame inside you forever. What will that do? You will never be able to truly love and move forward. Wisdom doesn't come when you are young, you have to walk through the fire to get to the other side. Little by little you become resilient and love yourself for who you really are because you are Made in God's Image. He will always be there for you and will never let you down. She was able to use that reptilian part of the brain to help her when she felt danger and other times not listening to her insight that’s when she got into trouble. Having on her mother’s side of the family, they were psychic and her auntie was a clairvoyant and had many clients come to see her, she was quite amazing. At the time it scared the living daylights out of her not understanding and realizing the gifts she possessed.......
If we could only see the strength we do have inside us and not be weak minded and to be tricked and never bow down to these tyrants, it would be a better world and a place to live. She was very grateful, having God's love. A free spirit with that wonderful creative imagination. No school, no church, no university to brainwash her. She was free to think as she pleased and thinking outside the box and that's an awesome gift to cherish. Perhaps that's what saved her not able to read at the time, no education and that might have been a good thing for her. She used her insight a higher psychic consciousness, deep in her being and learned to be street smart. She was more connected to up there than down here and lived on a different hemisphere. Had the ability to feel and see what others were not able to connect with. God was looking after this young autistic girl. The twists, the turns leading her on this fascinating journey, she certainly did have an unusual life and as everyone should know we are all unique in our own way. Is this why she understands what is going on right now in 2020 and beyond? She has no fear because she has the knowing and following what her mother had shared in that dream of hers leading her on this journey. Amen 🙏🏽