Since publishing her videos she's discovered a lot more about her syndrome and her life, writing and researching and it's not always been easy because of her learning difficulties. She never gave up that was her British upbringing, you just get on with it. The positive in all that she's discovered she knows herself better and decided to call her syndrome Aura.  It suited her creative abilities and outgoing personality which can be extremely exhausting sometimes, putting on a front. She has learned she can't do the things she was able to do and you get to a stage in your life you don’t want to and have to slow down.  When finding out she had Asperger's and was properly diagnosed in her 60s. Back in the late 90s she was insulted when her husband said she had high functioning autism. She was very indignant "I do not" she said, the only person back then who was known was Temple Grandin and she was nothing like this amazing woman she had seen on 60 minutes. She loved makeup fashion, looking glamorous and she had done pretty well, owning two successful businesses in the 80s. She didn't realize she was masking, covering up her anxieties and insecurities to try and fit in and a lot of this was to do with her childhood, bullying and things that happened to her which were out of her control. That's why she used to drink socially to make her feel more comfortable. At work it was different she was focusing on things she was interested in and had learned coping skills. The first thing she taught herself looking through the mirror to talk to clients when starting her hairdressing apprenticeship at the department store in Harrow Middelsex  north west of London in 1965.

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Her mum had done an amazing job, knowing her daughter had an artistic flair she put her in hairdressing. Wanting her daughter to feel accepted and feel normal, whatever that is? focused on her looks, etiquette and manners but she was certainly different. At fifteen wearing wigs and a lot of makeup and false eyelashes, she had aura. Even when trying to hide behind her mask of disguises. Being different and that's why she was taken to all those amazing places in the swinging 60s where the rich and famous went. Even though she was a working class girl and walked to the beat of her own drum especially when she was young, completely oblivious how others saw her. She could come across as a snob because of her shyness and being pretty but it was her protection. The fellas who would ask her out were a lot older than her and drove flashy cars and took her to great places. She preferred it that way and they treated her better and more mature but of course you always got the bloody jerks and as her mum would say the arrogant sods and she met a few of them. When she blossomed she was never without a date and most of the time wasn’t interested in them, it was just to get out of the house. She was fine going to clubs by herself at the age of sixteen on the other side of London she was never one to have girls to go with and a lot of the time they would be mean so why would she want to be with them? Till she met this beautiful soul Linda when working at the Regent Palace hotel in the big city of London.  She was like a sister she always wanted and her parents ran a pub in the East-end of London. 

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